Pewdiecry ~ Scarlet Silver Screen

Pewds/Felix





There we were. Looking at how the sun dipped into the deep rest on that scarlet silver screen. Delicately swinging from side to side like a little child who's mother was gently moving it's bed, humming that traditional lullaby.


We had spread our red picnic sheet on the sand, really near by the sea, but enough away from it, just to avoid that we're not going to be soaking wet. We had been silence quite a long while, but I didn't regret - we were on our first actual date.


Yes, the beach and the sight was a breathtaking experience - how the sunset makes the whole sky turn it's colour, from blue to red... but the actual thing what I wanted to do for a first time was - the first kiss.


Kiss, what changes the whole meaning of our relationship. We would become to be more closer. Our love would be shown much stronger and nothing could stop us then. Other people would disappear and the only thing what I would be able to see would be him - Cry.


I'd like to close you in my arms and never let go. Never again. I'm not going to make that same mistake ever again. Not now, when my work seems to make much result, comparing every other times with you.


Not anymore.





Cry/Ryan





Marzia left you because she knew that you were in much pain. That's why she said, that there was no passion in your relationship with her. I feel a little guilt, yes, because I told about my feeling toward you to her and I urged that she should tell me, does she really love you or is she just interested and curious about you.


They are two completely different fucking things! For the first time we ever spoke, I knew that I'm in love... Every time we ever spoke, I was shy and tried to keep my own secret hidden. That's why I wanted to know...I-I was too late, because Marzia got you.


That horrible morning you called me when I was online at Skype. You can't even imagine what I've been through. I was really nervous that day. It was the day I decided that I should tell you about my feelings.


I didn't want an eternal dullness... I wanted eternal love, and I still do. We can show to the whole world that even when we're homosexual, things don't change. We can live and be happy, even when we're not ''straight''.





Shyness is sometimes annoying, but when It's you...
You make it adorable.






Pewds/Felix






There he is: Sitting next to me and looking, how the waves are gracefully hitting the coast. Splash. Echoes that repeating sound what comes invariably every two minutes, when far away from the beach, there's whizzing a huge, silvery, but still quite blue-toned whale.


"Look over there, Cry!" I patted Cry's shoulder as I pointed at the whale. My voice reached to that peacefully swimming, beautiful creature, but It didn't seemed to mind my loud behaving. "Wow! That's so huge!" As Cry stopped his sentence, I wrapped him in my arms and set my gaze on him. "Oh, like 'if you know what I mean', is that what you're hinting, Cry?" "What!?" Cry exclaimed in panic.


His cheeks were being red, like tomatoes. "I was just kidding, babe." It took a while, until I realized what I had said. 'Babe', Really?! What the hell is wrong with me? Cry didn't even quake because of that unusual and maybe a little pejorative term. Is he the man or the woman of this relationship? Or do we even have one?... It's really hard to make that kind of verdict in this kind of situation, where we're still in a brand new begin.


We are handling each others like an ancient, priceless porcelain plates (good example, am I right?). Carefully and judiciously. I'd never hurt you, but I don't like this - Being so close to each others, but still being so far away. Now, when I thought, why there even has to be a 'woman' in our relationship. Is that a sophisticated version of the weak link? I don't like it. But back to the bisnes!


Cry looked at me, delicately stroking my hair with his hand and slowly came closer to my ear. "So, what are we supposed to do now, babe?" I winced instantly when I heard that weighted and underscored word - Babe. Suddenly I realized that my hands were swaeting and shivering because of all that pressure. "Nervous?" Cry inquired rising his eyebrows. "Uh-um..." "You shouldn't because we..." Cry interrupt. "...We what?" I was curious. I need to know was he saying! I gently stroke his hair and rubbed his other shoulder. "...Could we forget that resent?" Cry looked down, not showing any gestures. "It was just a superfluous thing, not important." He added. "Well, okay. If you say so..."


Suddenly, respiration started to be much harder. It felt like a had a huge piece of something in my throat and It was causing a huge trouble to breathe. I twitched my collar, but it didn't help a lot. "Cry, I have something really important to ask..."


As I stopped, Cry turned his gaze  to my eyes. His brown eyes were sparkling and I saw the stars and the full moon from them. "What is it, Pewds?" Cry looked at me, really curious and concerned, just waiting for my response.


"I was just wondering that... I want you to know that I have really strong feelings towards you..." at first Cry was looking at me blankly, doing nothing, but then, unexpectedly he set his hands on my cheeks, got on his knees, reached to me and pulled me into a kiss.


"Felix, I love you." I tried to respond, but the words didn't even once found their way outside to be heard. Cry noticed that, how desperately I stuttered and tried to communicate with no results, so he pulled me in to another kiss. But this time, it didn't stop. It began to be more intensive and impassioned. He pressed his tongue on my lips, hinting me to prepare for entering inside.


Little by little I started to loose my control, noticing that my partner was too, who's hands started to roam around my body. When our lips separated and we looked in each others eyes, we knew that this all were meant to be between us.


Cry sank down and started to lick my neck, what slowly changed to be nibbling, next to be sucking same time as his other hand was taking support of my shoulder and the other was already travelling inside my shirt. As you've observed this situation, you can imagine how fervent it was.


"R-Ryan..." That was the only expression, what I ever could squueze out of my body for now. It was completely impossible to speak clearly, when a person with whom you have a close interval, touches and explores your anatomy, tickling and testing your bodys different reactions. It was amazing to think that he loves me. How? I love him.


I love him more than I ever believed I loved Marzia. I thought, that an alliance with her would stop my strong orientation towards my very own friend. I tried and tried, but gladly you - Ryan - you were persistent. Without you I would be blindly misarable.


"I like the way you say my name, Felix." "Really?" I asked in surprise. "Yeah... Your accent makes it sound sexy." "Okay, then. I'll keep that in my mind. Ryan." I teased. "Shut up!" Cry chuckled.


The sun was almost disappeared behind the horizon far away from Florida, where the last sunbeams warmed our bodies before it disappeared and left us at the mercy of that chilly sea breeze. We laid down to the picnic sheet and looked at the stars.


"Can you see the Big Dipper?" Cry asked as he silently and very focus look on his gaze was trying to found it. "Nope. But I think I see something much better." "Really? Where?!" Cry got excited. "Beside me." Cry turned on his side, looked at me and set his hand on my cheek, delicately fondling me by using his thumb.


"Did you know, that the stars look better when they're reflecting from your eyes?" He couldn't avoid that huge damn smile what appears when you're really touched. When he smiles, I smile. He's just too much for my heart...


"Felix, did you know that you have a stunning smile?" I rose up to my side and set my center of gravity to my elbow. "Did you know that I love you?"


Those last words of mine got an approving nod of my date, which after we slanted our heads, settled and defied each others intimate zones and what comes to the question 'what after this?'





...Well, all I can tell about that night is that we shared our love and became more closer than we had ever been.